Rant over my life (please ignore)

Assalamualaikum..
Apa khabar? Sihat semua?
Sy x brp sihat.. Cuma batuk sikit dekat 3 minggu..
Hari ni barulah nk g jmpe dr selepas lama berfikir dan musyawarah..

Sebenarnya sy ni jenis jarang sgt sakit.. Kalau demam tu adalah 1x setahun.. Or else, selesema (urti) pn 1/2 kali je kena dlm setahun.. Tu yang x hirau sgt kalau sakit sbb tahu antibodi badan kuat n x perlukan ubat.. 💪💪  hehe..
Anyway, jz nk gtau perasaan org yg jarang sakit ni kalau sakit, dia punya mengada lebih.. Kadang2 tu tau dah sakit sikit je pn tp mencanang cerita mcm teruk sgt..😅
Tp, deep in my heart aq suka kalau sakit.. Rasa ada perhatian sikit.. Ada org kisah (walaupun hanyalah kwn2 yg jmpe sebentar cuma. Atau mgkn diorg risau berjangkut kt diorg😅) x kisahlah.. Its jz happy, x tau nape.. Mgkn sbb aq selalu in denial n said that i am strong n i will always be fine.. But, at this time round i know I was not well yet i still have to act strong.. Kadang2 x tau nk cite kt siapa.. Who cares anyway? Nk mengadu kt ibu ayah takut diorg risau.. Tu yg mengadu kt abg kandung je mampu.. Tp yelah.. Like he cares anyway.. Dia pn sama je ngan aq, always take things light.. Maybe sbb tu dia nampak relax je..😏.

So, in the end.. Me n my dear self.. Sihat or sakit suatu ujian.. Adakah ianya akan menjadi penghalang utk terus beribadah kpd Allah?

Tp aq x gtau pn lg kn aq sakit apa? Haha.. X pelah.. Its nothing serious.. Really, nothing serious..😊

Marriage is not a destination

Assalamualaikum..
Today, i just feel like writing about marriage..
Not mine, but just a thought..

Alhamdulillah, sejak menginjak ke usia 24 ni x putus2 lah jemputan diterima daripada sahabat handai.. Daripada kawan sekolah rendah, menengah, asasi mahupun degree.. Alhamdulillah, i am happy for them n i do pray for their happiness.. It seems that time flies so fast that i could not belive that my friends are getting married..

Nevertheless, the stories of broken marriage always  alarmed me.. One after another.. somehow, i never know that 2 souls who have promised to live together forever can be broken and separated.. I might not understand as i have never been in one.. But, it makes us the single afraid to get married.. I know that it was like sailing a boat.. Sometimes the sea was calm and peaceful, but it may change to storm in no time.. But, to see it wrecked always broke my heart..

So, i think it's okay to marry late then marry a wrong person.. Maybe, He delayed my time because He knew that I can hardly attached to one. He let me free to learn more, explore more and appreciate more of His knowledge and His world.. Besides, searching for the true meaning of living in this worldly life besides than just living..

I jz want to share that i jz lost someone that i really hope to spend the rest of my life.. It took me sometime to recover, but yes it will never heal.. The scar was there and it hurts sometime, yet it still keep me smiling of remembering the memories... It taught me that we can only plan, but He has the masterplan and His plan always be the best.. And it gives me strength to support my colleagues who experienced the same.. At this age, we're not looking for a temporary companion and fun but a serious and long term relationship to sail the boat to a same and permanent destination, jannah inshaAllah..

In conclusion, may Allah bless all the marriage couple with sakinah, mawaddah wa rahmah.. May it lasts till jannah, inshaAllah.. (Not just for the sake of #tilljannah but a truthful prayers) and may He grants us "the single" a peaceful life and guidance to improvise ourselves and of coarse a pious, patience and great husband to be with, inshaAllah aminn..😊