Fighting adult acne

Assalamualaikum & selamat sejahtera.. Its been a long break since my last entry.. Not that nothing is going on but i just don't feel like writing. 😅 forgive me.

So, as the title mentioned. I have been fighting for the adult acne for almost a year now. You would never know how frustrating it is to see your previously clear skin (not flawless of coarse) turned into sea of oil with multiple mountain peaks and scars (read: pimple & acne scars) mostly on the forehead.  It was painful to see and felt too. Its not that i do nothing bout it but sometimes i was too tired to try. Lots of money spent to multiple skincare product & facial treatment at spa. It will started to clear in the first week but come again in the 2 nd week. I do not know what exactly went wrong. Am i not patient enough or is it true that the product not suit me well? I truly do not know.

It was frustrating when at the age of mid 20's, your friend and juniors started become glowing, gorgeous and beautiful and you stucked up in teenage life fighting against acne again. 😣 luckily, i can hold myself and still go to public though with disastrous face.

Then, i just read a senior of mine wrote that this might be a test for me. Just being patient and start living. Every steps, every istighfar and every patient you made to calm yourself will always counted, inshaAllah..

So, i just share my routing here..

AM
- Cetaphil oily cleanser
- Simple toner
- herbaline ampoule
- Tidact 1% gel (antibiotic gel as spot treatment)
- mary kay clearproof moisturiser
- Herbaline pimple cream (forehead only)
- bio- essence sunscreen

PM
-cleanser
-toner
-ampoule
- Aztec Indian healing clay mask/ herbaline clay mask ( alternate daily. Yes, daily)
- toner
-ampoule
-the ordinary lactic acid 5% +HA 2%
-spot treatment
-moisturiser
- pimple cream

Long enough? 😂 just imagine how i managed to gp thrpugh every steps. 😆
Hopefully, i would find the remedy for this battle. Tired enough to try already.

So, if u have any suggestion which also not too costly, please do let me know.. Thank you.

My Skincare

Assalamualaikum..
Apa khabar?? terasa nak rant about my skincare.

Currently, i am having a bad breakouts after about 3 years of acne-free. The last time that I broke into bad breakout was when I change my face wash to korean-based skincare (I bought during my trip there). I turn into complete mess when my skin didn't back to normal even after I changed to my old face wash. After that, I found 'Simple' product that claimed to suit sensitive skin. It work tremendously for my skin which makes me loyal to them for 3 years. But, i can only suit the blue one which is for oily skin. It have these bits of exfoliators which didn't make my skin too dry. However, i still did have some pimples due to hormonal and some dry patches once in a while. So, Tidact gel and olive oil always come to the rescue when needed.


So, now I just feel that I want to try something new ( just because..😜) i jz want something that could make my skin bright not fair but at least glow cause i think my skin has become so dull. So, I try to change to everyone called as gentle cleanser, 'Cetaphil'. I bought the trial pack containing 95ml of gentle cleanser n moisturising cream. Very small and nice for travel. I really hope that they will make wonder to my skin. Besides that, I also add St Ives fresh skin scrub just to have 'glow skin'..😅.
Unfortunately, my face started develop small bumps around my forehead (which is not my common place of acne) and it keeps on multiplying. I just stop both products and come back to normal routine where it resolved. Then, my 'gatal tangan' again I wanted to try Klairs product that also everyone holy grail. I bought the rich moist foam cleanser. And Garden of eden serum for acne. Too bad that both products causing me very very bad breakouts with cytis painful acne...😭😭😭😭. I am not sure which one did worse. I jz thought the Klairs cleanser doesn't suit me so i stopped, but the new acne still coming out.. So, I stopped my serum. N then I saw my face stopped producing cystic acne.. Pheeww.. perhaps I am not suit with tea tree oil which are the based product for the Klairs cleanser and the serum. 😣. Because of my red and painful acne, I didn't dare to use the exfoliator wash of Simple. Afraid that it will make the condition worse. So, i just use my cetaphil cleanser and clay mask from innisfree. The cystic acne dried up very quickly and the scars started to fade after 2 weeks.. But, the joy didn't last long when all the tiny bumps which looks like white heads started to appear vigorously through out my face..😪😪.  And now I am looking for the new cleanser that works wonder to my skin. Hopefully, anyone could suggest me something..ok. Thats all my rant. I just feel so bad that Cetaphil, Klairs and tea tree oil didn't work for my skin or just perhaps I chose the wrong one.😔😔.

Wanita dan cantik

assalamualaikum..
Salam Ramadhan.. Sedar x yg Ramadhan bakal pergi? Mlm ni dah malam 24 Ramadhan..😣😣pantas nya masa berlalu. Entah apa je KPI yang telah dicapai.😪

So, saje je nk cerita.. Almaklumlah Ramadhan bakal berakhir dan syawal bakal menjelma. Jadinya, baju raya mesti lah ada kan? Sekarang, tengah posting kanak2.. Sibuknya Allah je tau. X sedar masa berlalu dan x sedar dah nak raya.😅

Maka, berbekalkan kudrat yg sedia ada bertapaklah kaki sorg2 pergi mood republik dan jalan TAR  utk mendapatkan baju raya. Allah..ramainya manusia!! Tp, baju yg dijual semua harga x macam sale pun. Dengan trend sekarang yang baju semua atas lutut..😣 shawl yang bermacam corak, cantik dan mostly x jarang tp kelabuhannya sukar menepati citarasa. Takkk!! X kata sy baik n pakai tudung labuh2, tak.. Just self preference and self confidence. Mmg ikut hati nak je beli tudung bunga2, kain pucci, corak kl tower tu..tp, takut x pakai sebab nk kne adjust kelabuhannya.. Malas nak bertekak dgn abg (kandung) dipagi raya nnt. Boleh buat gaduh kot. (Tahun lepas dah gaduh dah sbb shawl je pun😪)

So, motif menulis ni sbnrnye nak cakap, ikutlah dan pilihlah trend mana yg berkenan dihati janji menepati syariat. Tutup mana yang perlu. Longgar dan tidak terdedah. X dilupakan, berbelanja tu jangan lah sampai membazir. Raya sekali je. So, make sure cari baju yang boleh pakai even after raya k. Pesanan drp insan yg sangaaaattt lah cerewet pasal baju n tudung. Bukan x boleh bergaya, yg penting syariat diutama. Adios!

Selamat hari raya in advance!! Just in case x post pape sampai raya..😅😅
Ampun maaf dipinta..😊

Rant over my life (please ignore)

Assalamualaikum..
Apa khabar? Sihat semua?
Sy x brp sihat.. Cuma batuk sikit dekat 3 minggu..
Hari ni barulah nk g jmpe dr selepas lama berfikir dan musyawarah..

Sebenarnya sy ni jenis jarang sgt sakit.. Kalau demam tu adalah 1x setahun.. Or else, selesema (urti) pn 1/2 kali je kena dlm setahun.. Tu yang x hirau sgt kalau sakit sbb tahu antibodi badan kuat n x perlukan ubat.. 💪💪  hehe..
Anyway, jz nk gtau perasaan org yg jarang sakit ni kalau sakit, dia punya mengada lebih.. Kadang2 tu tau dah sakit sikit je pn tp mencanang cerita mcm teruk sgt..😅
Tp, deep in my heart aq suka kalau sakit.. Rasa ada perhatian sikit.. Ada org kisah (walaupun hanyalah kwn2 yg jmpe sebentar cuma. Atau mgkn diorg risau berjangkut kt diorg😅) x kisahlah.. Its jz happy, x tau nape.. Mgkn sbb aq selalu in denial n said that i am strong n i will always be fine.. But, at this time round i know I was not well yet i still have to act strong.. Kadang2 x tau nk cite kt siapa.. Who cares anyway? Nk mengadu kt ibu ayah takut diorg risau.. Tu yg mengadu kt abg kandung je mampu.. Tp yelah.. Like he cares anyway.. Dia pn sama je ngan aq, always take things light.. Maybe sbb tu dia nampak relax je..😏.

So, in the end.. Me n my dear self.. Sihat or sakit suatu ujian.. Adakah ianya akan menjadi penghalang utk terus beribadah kpd Allah?

Tp aq x gtau pn lg kn aq sakit apa? Haha.. X pelah.. Its nothing serious.. Really, nothing serious..😊

Marriage is not a destination

Assalamualaikum..
Today, i just feel like writing about marriage..
Not mine, but just a thought..

Alhamdulillah, sejak menginjak ke usia 24 ni x putus2 lah jemputan diterima daripada sahabat handai.. Daripada kawan sekolah rendah, menengah, asasi mahupun degree.. Alhamdulillah, i am happy for them n i do pray for their happiness.. It seems that time flies so fast that i could not belive that my friends are getting married..

Nevertheless, the stories of broken marriage always  alarmed me.. One after another.. somehow, i never know that 2 souls who have promised to live together forever can be broken and separated.. I might not understand as i have never been in one.. But, it makes us the single afraid to get married.. I know that it was like sailing a boat.. Sometimes the sea was calm and peaceful, but it may change to storm in no time.. But, to see it wrecked always broke my heart..

So, i think it's okay to marry late then marry a wrong person.. Maybe, He delayed my time because He knew that I can hardly attached to one. He let me free to learn more, explore more and appreciate more of His knowledge and His world.. Besides, searching for the true meaning of living in this worldly life besides than just living..

I jz want to share that i jz lost someone that i really hope to spend the rest of my life.. It took me sometime to recover, but yes it will never heal.. The scar was there and it hurts sometime, yet it still keep me smiling of remembering the memories... It taught me that we can only plan, but He has the masterplan and His plan always be the best.. And it gives me strength to support my colleagues who experienced the same.. At this age, we're not looking for a temporary companion and fun but a serious and long term relationship to sail the boat to a same and permanent destination, jannah inshaAllah..

In conclusion, may Allah bless all the marriage couple with sakinah, mawaddah wa rahmah.. May it lasts till jannah, inshaAllah.. (Not just for the sake of #tilljannah but a truthful prayers) and may He grants us "the single" a peaceful life and guidance to improvise ourselves and of coarse a pious, patience and great husband to be with, inshaAllah aminn..😊

Fadh turns 24!!

Its been a while since my last visit...
Blogging is just a way of me expressing what i can't at my social media as there's no like or share button here..
So, I felt there's freedom upon writing my personal life here. Something that was in my mind but I can't say freely.

*too much chattering*

So, Alhamdulillah Allah still gave me another year to be appreciated, to submit to Him and to repent over my sins before He take me out of my life. Alhamdulillah.

I celebrated my birthday at Emergency Department which is my current posting. I would not say celebrating, its just welcoming. This is because I had my shift until 11 pm but I dragged my shift to 2am.. *fuhh* time flies so fast.. Pity my housemates who waited for me to be back at 11 until 12.30 and they jz fall asleep later. I never expect anyone to celebrate my birthday. Its jz another day to everyone. Nothing really amazing happen when I was born, anyway. The next morning, I had a subsequent shift at 8.30 am.. *its so tiring.. really!* yet, again time flies so fast.. ED is a fast moving department. full of drama and events. Then, they managed to surprise me with a birthday cake and present!! i really-really not expecting it. I was too busy with my shift and my incomplete forensics report (procrastinator..duhh..) that I forget about my personal life. I felt like I helped someone when I was there and I felt beneficial. I always had this negative thought inside me that I am useless, worthless and not deserve to live anymore. Felt alone in this world. Trying to be strong when everyone around but shattered to be dust when I was all alone. Thus, I will always paste a smile to everyone so that they will not detect the tears, the sadness and the sorrows. I am in charged of my mind, my action and my behaviour. Thus, I will fight my own feelings and implant a new seeds of good expectations, prayers and keep on reciting my aim for today.

Actually, I realised that our subconscious mind will filter the information to the brain. They will assume most of the thing that we focused on as important. Thus, if u see all bad things, u will create a bad subconscious mind and vice versa.

So, in conclusion, age is just a rental for us to make use of it. Benefits it well and hopefully, we create a magnificent subconscious mind.

AD journey

Assalamualaikum..
First and foremost, lets be silent for a while for what happened in Aleppo, Syria..
(If u didn't know bout it, go search for it..it is not viral as France, but it cause more damage)













Sy masih berminat utk menulis ttg my AD journey..
It have been a month (x sangka😆😆) since i start the journey.. 28/3/2016 was my first day of the AD journey.. Started with lots of courage, guides and menus to make sure i stay on the track.. Stumble multiple times in between (especially during weekends  and holidays😪) I may not lose so much for an Atkiners, but its satisfying enough that I lose 3kg in a month.. As I always remember my Prof's advice to reduce the weight slowly, cause it may impair your metabolism/body system.. Still,  my family noticed my changes ( it pleased me already😆)

My new aim is to achieve my ideal weight, which is 45kg which i never achieved since secondary school (primary school not remember😅). I am not strictly on AD, but, i do stayed away from rice (or having very small amount, in front of my mum🙈), minimal breads, still big no for fruits, no sugary drinks, plenty plain water.. I wish that i could jog more but, lots of excuses by myself 😅

I really hope that I can maintain the current weight which is good enough..or lose even more, hopefully..

Just share my menu today:
Breakfast: 2 boiled egg masak sambal
Lunch: ikan goreng kunyit, pucuk manis masak lemak
Dinner: sardines, cucumber+sambal belacan

I never knew that i could survive with this diet without getting hungry..
I started to fall in love with Caesar salad n grilled chicken..
But, no money no talk lah.. Makan je lah apa yg ada..😁😁
Student lah kata kn.. So, farewell n see u again..

A date with myself

Assalamualaikum...
Apa khabar? Harapnya sihat belaka..

Today is 17/4/2016..
Selepas seminggu (or mungkin lebih) dok survey hair product or hair treatment available..
Akhirnya, tercapai juga hasrat nk buat hair treatment yg telah dipendam almost a year..
Mesti pelik kan tetiba je nk buat hair treatment ni? X de angin, x de ribut..
Sebenonye, cek ni da lama da rase rambut byk beno gugurnye..
Makin lama tgk, makin jelas kulit kepala..
Am I going to be bald?? 😱😱

Asbab itu, gigihlah diri ini mencari hair treatment or shampoo utk rambut gugur nih..
Bukan x pernah cuba gne anti hair fall shampoo, da bermacam cuba sampai tp x jumpa jugak yg sesuai..
Oleh itu, misi mencari hair treatment pn bermula..
Dulu pernah try cari kt batu pahat, tp semua kedai cina..
Dok timbang tara, mst x de tmpt khas utk kita2 yg bertudung ni..ye idok?
So, tetiba muncullah term "salon muslimah" where only women allowed to go in..

Antara yg terbaca:
1. Jazirat el-rahah
2. Medina Ladies Salon
3. Chinta salon (by Fasha Sandha)

Selepas ditemui, maka bermulalah fasa surveying..
Of coarse lah melalui blog-walking..
Review after review, hati macam kuat nk g ke Jazirah el-rahah.. Sbb dye gne product yg terkenal, Schwazorkopf (camtu kot ejaannya)..
Tapi, salon dye kat Bangi je..
Kalau ikut hati, da gigih dah nk g..sanggup naik ktm n taxi( almaklumlah, kita x de kereta)
Siap plan nk g Zawara Coffee after treatment..huhu..

Then, teringat plak penah nampak UmmiMars aka kak Maria Elena promote 1 salon nih..muslimah salon, of coarse..
So, jumpa lah salon CAPELLO BY NINA..
Search punya search, dye ada 3 cawangan:
1. Bangi
2. Shah Alam
3. Ampang

Then, misi ber-google map mana tmpat paling dekat..
Akhirnya Ampang menjadi pilihan, where CAPELLO BY NINA is..

(Fuhh....panjang intro)

So, pagi2 tadi call terus buat appointment jam 2(takut full)
Then, after siap demo around12.30 terus rushing balik..
Jam 1.12 baru betul2 siap n ready utk bergerak... By public transport of coarse..

PPUKM➡️LRT Maluri➡️LRT Ampang➡️Taxi ke salon

Sampai just in time..
Org yg in-charge x de lagi..so, kite solat dulu..(kt situ ada surau..meskipun x brp besar tp, oklah)
Then, bermula lah sesi rawatan..
I chose Scalp Treatment.. Dye ada suggest moisture treatment gak, tp kita ckp je not sure.. Dye x de lah paksa..
Akak yg in-charge tu cm senyap sket..Try jugak tanya few things, awal2 tu suara x brp nk dgr.. N jwpn dye pn sepatah2 je.. At last, kita senyap jelah..
Dah habis tu akk tu n manager (kot) tanya sama ada nk potong rambut x? Dengan penuh yakin, kita tolak lagi(sgtlah defensive time tu..Tp, kalau diorg pujuk tu boleh cair jugak sbnrnye..huhu)

Then, i'm done..

Its really a memorable journey..my first experience pegi salon..before ni potong rambut pn ayah potong kan..😁😁

Habis around 3.30pm.. My lunch time passed, so gotta get something for late lunch..
Plan asal nk cari sweetree, a Korean halal food...tp, sbb dah penat n cm serabut je jln situ maka kita tgklah apa yg ada di depan mata..

Nandos vs secret recipe 😍😍

Sbb fikir harga SR cm melambung sgt, kita pon dgn berani dan penuh yakin masuk ke Nando's utk makan..sorg2.. 😢😢
Dilema lagi utk fikir menu yg masih menepati my AD..
Salad shj or nk ayam??
I go for normal main dish with just 1 side dish..
1/4 chicken n coleslaw..
No more bottomless ice lemon tea for me..A mineral water instead..😪
Total harga: RM22.60 (include 10% service charge)

Then, headed home happily..😁😁
Tp, kene singgah tbs dlu utk beli tiket balik labour day..

LRT Ampang➡️LRT BTS

Kat situ, temptation occurs..coolblog..😭
I went for black Choc without sugar..
Hopefully, x lah rosak sgt my AD..huhu

LRT BTS➡️LRT BTR➡️Taxi to my dearest college

So, that's all my journey..
The unexpected one..
Alone..😄

Atkins diet re-induction day 4

Assalamualaikum..
Tiba-tiba rajin pulak nk update blog kn..🙈
 Seperti post sblm ni, i've started Atkins currently week 2..
Masuk minggu ke 2 ni, da x larat dah nk tulis every menu n weight everyday..
Tp, i still checked on my weight just too lazy to jot down..

So, sebenarnya this post more towards how AD change my view n lifestyle(though i am still struggling to follow it)

1. It change my view on the foods n eating habits..how?
-AD induction phase targeting the person to STOP eat any carbs include rice(our staple food), any sugar or sweet food (bye desserts😭😭), any fruits (as it contain sugar) and any bread or anything that have flour.
-so, whats left to eat? Hehe.. We still have our proteins, veges and fats to munch on..
-the maximum amount of carbs allowed in this phase is 20g.
-thus, i have to look and scan all the foods which will fit for my diet plan.
- I see, our eating habits as Malaysian was TOO HIGH CARBOHYDRATES including sugar.
-as for breakfast, we tend to drink sugary drinks, fried rice or noodles and some kuih.. All contain carbs. how many will be burned to be used as energy?  Only a little. And the rest will be transfer to fat. So, though we didnt take too much food, its just in our society.

2. AD makes my life more energetic.
-i may not run fast when i'm in AD as i'm easily fatigue.
-but, i can start my day earlier, fresher and no need of daily caffeine dose( i am a coffee addict. Which makes me even harder to start the journey)

3. AD makes me to drink plenty of plain water.
- i am not a fan of plain water. For me, caffeinated and sweet drink would suit my taste bud better.
- however, in AD i have to restrain myself from drink sweet drinks. Thus, i will always drink pleantu of plain water without i realize that i had 3 Litres of it.
- it helps with my craving, hunger and hydration. 😉

So, last week i already lost 2kg in a week but i have consulted my Dr and he advised me to go slower on losing my weight.. Because it may disturbs my metabolism. So, the days onward i will cheats every once and then to make sure i dont lose weight too fast. 😪 but, i still keep on the diet and hoping that i can achieve my target weight soon..

Atkins Induction Phase

Assalamualaikum..
Lama dah x menulis di sini ye..
Ingatkan dah x wujud account ni..🙊🙊

Btw, entry kali ni nk share sket ttg ATKIN's diet..
Diet yg penuh kontroversi..
Mesti dah ramai yg pernah dgr ttg AD ni..
So, secara mudah, AD is about going for very low carbs diet (20g/day)
So, bila semua carbs dah dibakar, tinggallah lemak2 tepu di badan utk dibakar..
Ianya akan mengakibatkan proses yg dipanggil ketosis..

So, basically, I'm in my 2nd week but already re-induction phase day 3.
Berikut merupakan menu my first week and the weight for each day..

Day 1(53.7)
-bfast: non-sugar coffee+2 fried eggs
-lunch: sayur kangkung+telur dadar+3telur puyuh
-dinner: sayur kailan ikan masin +telur bistik
-total air masak 2L

Day 2 (53.6)
-bfast: green tea (no sugar)+aym goreng+telur mata+timun
-lunch: ikan keli sambal+coleslaw
-snack: ayam masak merah+kuah laksa johor+timun
-dinner: telur bistik+sayur kailan goreng with ayam
-total air: 3L

Day 3 (52.7)
-bfast: kopi kosong+scramble egg+telur rebus+tempe goreng
-lunch: daging tumis cili+tofu telur+sayur kangkung tumis
-dinner: telur dadar
-total air: 2L

Day 4 (52.2)
-bfast: 1/3 kopiko coffee+scramble egg+coleslaw
-lunch: ikan rebus& air asam+tempe goreng
-dinner: scramble egg +coleslaw
-cheat-1 buah tin
-total air: 2L

Day 5 (51.7)
-bfast: 2 boiled eggs+mayo
-lunch: tempoyak ikan patin + broccoli celur
-cheat: 1 keropok lekor+ 1/2 karipap kentang
-dinner: grilled black pepper chicken+salad +corn +flat white coffee

Day 6-alumrun (51.7)
-bfast: 2 quarter-boiled egg+1chocolate+1 date+a cup of instant coffee
-lunch: ayam bakar+daging masak kicap+salad
-cheat: cendol(minima gula+no cendol mee)
-dinner: telur rebus

So, basically day 6 tu ada larian..i have to run 5km. I've tried to run while on AD before but I couldnt stay so long. The stamina was very bad as I dont have any sugar in the body. So, I took sugary foods early on before the run. Just to make sure I can run throughout 5km..

I didnt continue to jot down my menu afterwards cz I had major cheating when I was eating fried rice while in a program.  As expected, the weight raise a bit to 52.5. Currently, I am in 52.0 and really hope to reduce more soon..

Marriage

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Baitul Muslim or bahasa mudahnya "KAWIN".

Isu yang hangat diperkatakan oleh insan yang seusia denganku..

tidak kira masa, ketika mahupun suasana.

Sehubungan itu, satu perkongsian ingin aku kongsi disini nukilan seorang sahabat handai..

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Bila bicara tentang Baitul Muslim.. 

yg pertama terlintas dlm fikiran, belum bersedia......
nikah itu tangjwb yg besar..

persediaan nya memakan masa..bkn mengejar kesempurnaan kerana tiada siapa mampu jadi sempurna.. but we need to prepare ourselves so we can serve the best ..

wanita itu akalnya pendek, tindakannya kadang tanpa fikir panjang,, emosinya kadang bercelaru.. itulah asbab utk mentarbiyah diri.. 'your partner will make your life,n u will determine his life..'

Cukuplah kisah dahulu menjadi teladan lemahnya lelaki akibat wanita..

-Bagaimana Samson dilemahkan dengan pujuk rayu Delila.. hingga pahlawan gagah yg tak pernah tumpas di medan tempur itu akhirnya tewas dan dibutakan matanya,,

-kisah Jeneral Mark Anthony yg menghunuskan pedang ke badan sendiri kerana sedih mendengar berita kematian kekasih nya, Ratu Cleopatra.
Walhal berita kematian itu palsu dan direka Cleoptra sendiri kerana kemarahanya trhdp Mark..

-Kisah romeo yg meminum racun ? kisah Qais dan laila?

Wanita itu seharusnya mempersiapkan diri dengan kematangan..
hingga akhirnya terhasil satu jiwa yg kuat dan mampu menjadi pembangkit semangat ketika 'futur' ,bkn nya penyebab ke'futuran'.. dan pendamping yg memahami, bkn yg hanya minta difahami..

-Seperti Humahaton yg menjadi tulang belakang suaminya, Sultan Murad..juga anakndanya Sultan Muhammad Al fateh yg berhasil menawan konstantinopel..

-Seperti Latifah As syauli, pengurus rumah tangga yg memahami komitmen dakwah As syahid Imam Hassan Al banna, pengasas Ikhwan Muslimin... Latifah yg lebih mgutamakan jihad di dalam rumah berjaya melahirkan anak- anak yg disegani, berpakej lengkap dlm bidang intelektual dan tarbiyah islamiyah..

-Seperti Rasha Al- Adlouni,, kesan dari tarbiyah zauj nya ,As- Syahid Dr Abdul Aziz Ar Rantisi.. menjadikannya terlihat seperti Klon suaminya dlm dakwah,,menggantikan suaminya yg syahid,, juga seorng pendamping yg sabar,ikhlas dan setia ketika as syahid masih hidup..
pernah suaminya pulang ke rumah setelah berminggu keluar atas urusan dakwah.. setelah sampai di muka pintu,
Rasha berkata " mengapa kamu pulang suamiku? Bukankah diri mu lebih diperlukan ummah di luar sana? "

peranan wanita itu besar,, tanggungjawab yg perlu dipikul melebihi kudrat yg ada.. walau xmampu menjadi sehebat mereka..
sekurang2 ny kita cuba perbaiki diri SEDIKIT demi SEDKIT..

ianya memakan masa yg pnjang & lngkah pertama harus bermula skrg,,
generasi yg tertegak fikrah islam dlm dirinya tidak dilahirkan dari ibu yg masa mudanya penuh keasyikan dn kelalaian..
gigihlah mempersiapkan diri sebagai bakal jenazah

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*So, note to dear self.. are u ready kids?? (ala-ala spongebob dah bunyinye)..jawapan ada dalam diri masing-masing.. 

Untuk aku, ada juga few friends of mine berbicara isu ini denganku.. bagiku, if u're ready n u're parents let u be.. go n get married.. sesungguhnya, ubat bagi dua insan yang bercinta itu nikah..

Sabda Rasulullah,“Aku tidak melihat (penawar) untuk dua orang yang bercinta seperti nikah” (riwayat al-Baihaqi dan Ibn Majah, sahih).

namun beringatlah, marriage life is not a magic trick that can change people.. marriage life also not a fairy tale story that will always end as happily ever after. Ianya perkongsian hidup antara dua insan yang tidak pernah mengenali dan berbeza ibarat langit dan bumi. marriage also not just about union of  a man n a woman.. But, it is about union of 2 families.. So, bak kata ibu, usah terburu-buru dalam membuat keputusan untuk bernikah.. 

Untuk itu, ada lagi 1 perkongsian yang ku kutip dari En. Facebook..

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Turning 22

Assalamualaikum.. long time no see..
today (the day i wrote this) is 27th January 2015..I am turning 22..
I dont really excited bout it, as time goes by.. age is just numbers.. and I already realized that I am 22 since last December (though not yet leaving 21).. so, yeah.. I am 22 now..no big deal..

What's in my mind for this few days are what I've done within 22 years living on the Earth?
Some would say; "Baru 22, lek lah.. muda lagi". But, the other would say: "Aku dah 22.. apa yg telah aq lakukan dgn usiaku?"

Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda dalam hadits Abdullah bin Mas’ud R.A, “Tidak akan beranjak kaki anak Adam pada Hari Kiamat dari sisi Rabbnya sampai dia ditanya tentang 5 (perkara) : Tentang umurnya dimana dia habiskan, tentang masa mudanya dimana dia usangkan, tentang hartanya dari mana dia mendapatkannya dan kemana dia keluarkan dan tentang apa yang telah dia amalkan dari ilmunya”. (HR. At-Tirmizi).

So, yeah.. what i have done with my age? perkara bermanfaat or sia-sia? Hurmm...

Untuk menjawab persoalan itu, ada seperkara lagi di kepala ku.."What did I do best?" or in better words, "What is my potential?". Do what u love and love what u do. aq masih mencari apa yg menjadi minat aq. at the age of 22 and i am still lost with my own life.  hurmm. Being in clinical years have made me thinking of my path over n over again. my clinical life was miserable.. hate it so much!! I lost control of myself and losing myself in this hectic life of clinical. Hate when I have to face all the doctors n even the seniors.. Dunno why but I always think that I shouldnt be here.. This is a mistake..I lost my interest entirely..

So, here I am.. stop at the very middle of medical school and thinking of the coming pathway.. watching back my steps from the very beginning makes me feel that its a waste to stop here. But, to continue walking in this path just makes me suffocating. *Breathe in deeply*

Pre-KOREA trip

Anyeong haseyo!!
aceh! bru duk seminggu kt korea da bajet ley ckp korean language..haha..

ok, toksah nk terkejut sgt tgk cek ckp korea ye.. i am not really a k-pop fans.. lau drama tu ada la gak follow sket2 (tu pun lau ada yg sudi nk supply la..nk cri sndri, mmg x..huhu)
so, cmne aq ley terjebak dgn trip ni? credit to my beloved friend: ADLINA NADHIRAH.. dye yg tau ttg trip ni dlu n ajk aq utk join skali time cuti study week sem 1 tahun 2 dulu..(x sedar dri nk exam final..hehe)..so, how simple is that?? hehe..

Jd, nk dijadikan cerita total semua yg pergi trip ni ialah 12 ORANG dan kami pergi backpacking..(YEAH! FIRST TIME BACKPACKERS!!Woohoo!!). Disebabkan kami pergi sendiri, our programmer, planner n manager: Aidi & Arif pn merangka itinerary spnjg kami di sana. mrk jugaklah yg uruskan ticket, penginapan, dan semualah senang cite..kira, x de diorg berdua trip ni x kn berjaya (cewah!). So, berikut merupakan itinerari kami berserta anggaran harga.

[Ni itinerary kt Seoul]

Day 1 (13/04/14) -Sunday
	Time of departure	Time of arrival	Plan	Cost (Won)
Reach LCCT		9.00pm
flight to Incheon,  South Korea	1.00am	8.20am	arrival at Incheon Airport
	8.20am	10.00am	walk to AREX station and T-money for subway
	10.00am	11.10am	Incheon - Seoul station	4350
	11.10am	11.30am	Take Train From Seoul Station- sinseol dong station exit-10	1050
	11.30am	11.40am	walk to Limestay Hotel
	11.40am	12.10pm	Rest for a while
	12.10pm	12.20pm	walk to sinseol dong Station
	12.20pm	12.40pm	sinseol dong station interchange at jongnosamga- Angguk station exit 3	1050
	12.20pm	1.00pm	sinseol dong station interchange at seongsu station - jamsil station
	12.40pm	3.30pm	Guided Trip in Changdeokgung Palace.	8000
	3.47pm	4.01pm	angguk station- chungmuro station- hoehyeon station exit 6	1050
	4.01pm	4.30pm	prayers and lunch(between exit 5 and 6 ada kedai kebab)
	4.30pm	7.30pm	nandaemun market and myeondong Street
	8.00pm	8.30pm	haeyeon station- dongdaemon history and culture station-gwanghwamon station	1050
	8.30pm	10.00pm	walk through square and cheonggyongmon  river
	10.00pm	10.30pm	walk along and go to jonggack station-sinseol dong station	1050
			walk to family mart and go back to limestay hotel
			pray and rest
Total Spent				17600
Day 2 (14/04/2014) Monday
	Time of departure	Time of arrival	Plan	Cost (Won)
Trip to Nami Island	7.15am	7.45am	Depart from sinseol dong Station to Cheongnyangni Station	1050
	8.16am	8.58am	Depart from Cheongnyangni Station to Gapyeong Station	4000
	9.00am	9.30am	Nami island is walking distance (25 minutes, ≈ 1.6km) from Gapyeong station (가평역) or we can take bus or taxi	1000
	9.30am	9.40am	Ride on ferry to Nami Island	8000
	9.40am	1.40pm	Tour in Nami Island
	1.40pm	2.00pm	Getting ready to Gapyeong Station	1000
	2.21pm	3.00pm	Depart from Gapyeong Station to Cheongnyangni  Station	4000
	3.23pm	3.45pm	Depart from Cheongnyangni Station to Itaewon Station	1050
Trip to Itaewon	3.45pm	4.30pm	Prayers in Itaewon Mosque and look around
	4.30pm	7.00pm	Walk around Itaewon
	7.16pm		Depart from Itaewon Station to Express Bus Terminal Station	1050
	7.36pm	8.45pm	Walk to Banpo Bridge for Rainbow Fountain Show at 8.00pm
	8.45pm	9.10pm	Walk to Express Bus Terminal Station
	9.20pm	9.38pm	Depart from Express Bus Terminal Station to sinseol dong	1150
			Retire for the day :)
Total Spent				22300
Day 3 ( 15/04/2014) Tuesday
	Time of departure	Time of arrival	Plan	Cost (Won)
Trip to Ehwa University	7.00am	8.00am	Depart from sinseol dong Station to city hall station(transfer to line 2) 1st car and 1 door- Ewha University Station(if sempat la)	1050
	8.00am	9.30am	Sightseeing and shopping around Ewha University
	9.30am	10.30am	ewha station- hongik universiti station(exit left side 8th car and 2nd door)- interchange to gimpo airport	1050
			Total spent	2100

[Ni itinerary kt jeju island]

Date	departure	arrival	Duration	Description	Price/Fee
26-02-2014 (Wed)	12.20pm	1.25pm	I h 5min	seoul-Jeju Island
		1.25pm		arrived at Jeju airport
	1.25pm	2.15pm	35min	car rental >How to go to KT Kumho Office: Once you arrived at Jeju Airport, go to a tourist information centre at ground floor. The KT counter is just next to the centre. Submitted your printed booking and International Driving Permit/IDP to a person in-charge. Once completed, you need to fetch the KT shuttle bus which takes you directly to the office
	2.15pm	3.00pm	1h	arrived at Teddy bear museum    >  (~30 -45 min driving from airport)                                                                                 > Solat zuhur  (12:33-3:14)                                                                                               > Lunch
	3.00pm	4.30pm	1h 30min	1. Teddy Bear Museum	7,000 won
	4.30pm	6.00pm	1h 30min	2. Jungmun daapo, Jusangjeolli cliff	Adult 2,000 won  (Group 1,600 won)
	6.30 pm	8.00pm	30min	check in kkodak kkodak guesthouse , Dongnyuam-ro, Seongsan-eup, Seogwipo-si. Solat Maghrib and Rest.
	8.00pm	10.00pm	2h	Side seeing at Seogwipo City and Dinner.
	10.00pm	4.30am	6h 30min	sleep
Date		Time	Duration	Description	Price/Fee
27-2-2014 (Thurs)		5.00am - 6.00am	1 h	Wake up & get ready  > Subuh (5:38-7:03)
		6.00am - 7.00am	1 h	Breakfast
		7.00am - 8.00 am	1 h	Oedolgae Rock (~2km from Search Results Jeongbang Falls )	free
		8.00am - 9.00 am	1 h	jeongbang fall	1600won (group)
		9.00am - 10.00 am		check out Kkodak Kkodak
		10.00am	2 h	Go to Ilchulbong Hotel (~50 km from kkodak2 guesthouse)
		12.00pm-12.45pm		Arrived & check-in at jeju Lux hotel                                                                    > Zuhur (12:46 -3:15)
		1.00pm	spend 3-4 hours	Udo Island                                                                                                            > 15 min ferry ride away from jeju Island  (seungsan harbour)           > last ferry from udo at 5 pm depends on month..  so need to get back to port before 5 pm.	Udo Ferry to and fro + udo admission entrance:  5,500won                                               Rough Estimation Rate  for Rental: Bike (5,000k won/hr), AVT: (20,000k won/hr), Scooter (15,000k won/hr),  Loop Bus Ride  (5,000k won) -all day round
		6.00 pm		Rest in hotel.. Sleep early..  Hiking to ilchulbong peak tomorrow.. require lot of stamina.                                                                          > Maghrib (6:23 -7:45)                                                                                                                   > Isyak
Date		Time	Duration	Description	Price/Fee
28-2-2014 (Friday)		5.00am-8.30am		Wake up and go to Ilchulbong peak                                                                             > take nearly 2 hours to the peak (OMG!)                                                                                                               >open at 6.00am	2000 won
		9.00am-9.30am		breakfast and check out jeju Lux Hotel
		9.30am-11.00am		Check out and go to Manjanggul Cave (16.6 km from ilchulbong hotel)	Manjanggul cave : 2000 won
		11.00am-12.15pm	~2h to 35 min to Manjanggul Cave from Ilchulbong Hotel	Arrived at Manjanggul Cave and Gimnyeong Maze park                                     > Manjangul Cave (30 minute walking distance from Manjanggul Cave Entrance(The parking lot) to Manjanggul Cave), At the parking lot, take a town bus bound for Manjanggul or a taxi.  Three minute ride by taxi from the parking lot to Manjanggul Cave.
		12.15pm-1.15pm		Gimnyeong Maze Park  (It's about 15 minutes walk from Manjanggul cave.)	Maze Park: 3300 won
		1.15pm-3.15pm	2h	to jeju airport (drop in luggage)
		3.15pm-3.30pm	15 min to 30 min from airport to Kt-kumho car rental service	Kt-kumho Car Rental Service                                                                               Check in luggage
		4.00pm-5.50pm	1 h 50min	Shopping in Jeju airport (duty free)
		5.50pm-7.00pm	1h 10min	Arrival at Gimhae airport (Busan)	Total: 23000 won

[Finally kt Busan]

-nothing much

-tido sekejap n bgn awal esoknya utk bertolak ke Gimhae airport utk pulang ke Malaysia

*overall itulah rangka awal perjalanan kami.. segala details nnt cek update kt next entry..
Kamsahamnida! ;)

Wanita Musafir Tanpa Mahram Untuk Tujuan Ziarah

Assalamualaikum.. berikutan coretan yang lepas, alhamdulillah Allah temukan aq dgn panduan untuk wanita bermusafir tanpa mahram..renung-renungkan dan selamat beramal..

Huraian Tajuk/Isu: 

Apakah hukum seorang wanita bermusafir tanpa suami atau mahram untuk tujuan ziarah?

Keputusan: 

Mesyuarat Jawatankuasa Fatwa Negeri Johor yang bersidang pada 19 Rabiulawal 1422 bersamaan 11 Jun 2001 telah membincangkan mengenai Wanita Musafir Tanpa Mahram Untuk Tujuan Ziarah.

Alhamdulillah fatwanya:

Diharuskan musafir bagi wanita untuk tujuan ziarah tanpa suami atau mahram dengan syarat-syarat yang ketat dan disiplin-disiplin yang tertentu :-

1. Aman perjalanan dan terjamin keselamatannya.

2. Suami atau mahram tiada atau kedua-duanya uzur atau tidak dapat bersama disebabkan oleh sebab yang diharuskan syarak.

3. Telah mendapat keizinan suami atau mahram ( jika ada ).

4. Bersama dalam kenderaan yang menghimpunkan ramai penumpang seperti kapal terbang, keretapi atau bas.

5. Bersama dengan kumpulan perempuan yang thiqah ( boleh dipercayai ) dan solihat.

6. Perjalanannya tidak menimbulkan fitnah dan keraguan.

7. Wanita tersebut dari golongan yang sudah berumur.

8. Tujuannya untuk ziarah mengeratkan silaturrahim, terutama yang ada hubungan nasab ( keturunan ) atau ziarah orang sakit atau memenuhi jemputan.

9. Perjalanannya ada mempunyai matlamat tertentu yang diharuskan oleh syarak, bukan untuk semata-mata melancong, berkelah atau dalam bentuk suka-suka sahaja.

10. Mempunyai perbelanjaan cukup untuk menunaikan ziarah iaitu pergi dan balik, juga mempunyai perbelanjaan yang cukup untuk nafkah dan keperluann hidup selepas kembali dari ziarah tersebut.

11. Kesihatan yang baik, tidak menghidap penyakit kronik yang boleh menyusahkan dirinya dan orang lain bersamanya.

12. Dengan perhiasan yang sederhana.

13. Wanita yang hendak pergi itu mestilah dari golongan zat hishmah ( jati diri dan berakhlak mulia ).

14. Bukan dalam 'iddah kematian suami.

15. Undang-undang membenarkannya

+sumber: http://www.e-fatwa.gov.my/ 

Dilema Wanita @ Muslimat

rumitnya menjadi wanita..

Di mata manusia..

bukan mengeluh..

terasa mahu mencoret rasa..

terkadang fitrah manusia untuk bebas..

bukan ku maksudkan bebas yang extreme itu..

hanya sekadar x terlalu terikat..hingga menyekat..

ku tahu dan sedar ia ditetapkan utk kemaslahatan wanita..

menjaga keselamatan wanita..kehormatan wanita..

namun, rasa terikat, rasa tersekat,

rasa seperti terkurung di penjara lutsinar ciptaan manusia..

jika ada yang mahu keluar berteman,

kau tuduh x berdikari..

bila dia mampu berdiri atas kaki sendiri,

kau kata dia melanggar perintah ilahi,

perlunya mereka keluar bersama mahram.

entah,

rumitnya menjadi wanita..

buatlah apa sahaja pasti ada yang mengata..

aku wanita berdikari,

yang tersepit antara diri dan perintah Ilahi..

melihat adab-adab musafir wanita islam..

indah, sememangnya..

ditetapka untuk menjaga keselamatannya..kehormatannya..

bg diri yang suka bersendiri..ke mana jua kaki melangkah pergi

ibarat sembilu mengguris hati..

memateri kaki dari terus melangkah..

ibarat burung yang patah sayapnya..